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The Secret of the Monkeys’ Confidence

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The shriek of macaws, the rustle of leaf blades, the chittering of monkeys. Children flock around their mothers and fathers in crowds of neon colors and tanned skin. The tang of manure mingles with the scent of sunscreen. With utter confidence, Eire strides forward holding her tail in her hand.

We’re at the Santa Ana Zoo (Also known as The Monkey Zoo). Apparently Joseph Prentice, the founder of the zoo, required that there always be 50 monkeys present. And present they are, with the tangerine-orange ruff of the Golden Lion Tamarin and the black-capped spider monkey’s wizened face. Eire looks around her in wonder and walks away, her shoes scuffing the dirt and leaving tiny clouds hanging behind. She, like the monkeys, moves with utter sang-froid. What is the secret to their confidence?

Santa Ana, CA / morning / SAZOO

Hail and Bison: How We Discovered South Dakota

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Picture this: it’s evening in the middle of nowhere, South Dakota, and the sun is setting over the Badlands in ribbons of gold and cerulean. Just over the hill, a bull bison stands like a sculpture–still, except for the occasional flick of his tufty tail. The air is rapidly cooling from 110+ degrees to just bearable. Eire, 5 months, waves her arms and gurgles with the delight of being out of her high chair. We are sweaty, grimy, and wearing identical bandanas. It’s our first full day on the road. Life is perfect.

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And then, from over the hill, sweeps a freight train of wind. The temperature drops. Tiny spits of rain kiss our skin, and within minutes they become huge bruising drops that rapidly turn into hail. The bison disappears, and the light dims and greens. We look at each other and without a word start to pack everything back into our truck. Just in time we leap into the front seat with Eire and watch the torrents unleashed over our windshield.

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But we are parked on dirt, in a horse arena. And that dirt is rapidly turning into mud. We skid and slide as we pull onto the gravel drive and make our way to the one structure that stands in this tiny outpost surrounded by wilderness. Hearts pounding in our throats, we listen to the thud-crash of hail on our windshield. It sounds like bottles breaking. What if our windshield shatters? We sing with Eire, trying to hide our terror.

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Hiding in a concrete pit toilet–none too clean–while wondering how much damage hail can actually do isn’t the ideal way to spend a half hour, but we sing our songs and whisper our fears as a thousand hail-dervishes hurl themselves against the walls outside. Misery suffuses us. Why are we here?

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Suddenly, silence. Holding our breath, we creep out to find the landscape transformed by cold white globules up to the size of a baking potato. Our truck sports a new and interesting collection of hail dents, but our windshield is whole. We are safe.

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As we settle into the bed we recently constructed in the back of our truck and huddle together against the cold, wonder fills us. Just two days ago we were back home in Missouri, drinking coffee and petting cats, packing clothes and making granola balls. Working. In the routine. And here we are in a gravel drive surrounded by signs that say “Wilderness area: enter at your own risk”, in the corrugated rock of the Badlands.

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Terror, wonder, sameness. All sides of the same cube. The organic wonder of life on the road, nurtured and springing from life at home. We’ll be in the Black Hills tomorrow, and this wild land left behind us, but the memories will cling to us forever.